Well this afternoon has been the most challenging so far. She has Brest fed twice today but vomited it up about and hour later. She also puked up the pain meds so we just tried some new kinds. Were think moriphine for the night so she rest well and the pain stays under control. I do know she is hang in there when she doing binki managment ( this is switching between two diffent binkis like gum when the taste is gone). We held her most of the day when she was not sleeping. Joe and I are both coverd in puke and stink. You think Purna looks bad at lest she has a good excuse. Tomorrow should be another bad day with swelling but hopfully not vomitng and she can eat some more to get some strengh back. She should get her drain tube pulled out tomorrow as well which has been a source of pain. She has stop most of the bleeding in her head so this is good. Her cut/stiches is already looking great. We have to clean it five times day and put ontiment on it. It does not get dressed up it heals in the open air it which is nice.
Another day closer to her feeling better. This makes mama bear happy. Like I said before I would of done anything to of been able to do this for her, but this is her fight not mine. I think the hardest part about babies is they just don't know what or why this is happing. All she know is she has ouchies and can't see a dam thing. I have been singing to her all day ( this might make the pain worse) she reaches up and grabs my face to feel that it's me.. Or trying to cover my mouth so I'll stop. She really did like just being held today and so did I. This was the best part of the day for Joe and I.
This childrens hospital is a very humbling place to be I'll tell you. I just kiss my baby Purna on the big swollen forehead and say thank you for the most amazing perfect gift of my life.
Thank you for choosing us Purna..
And I would like to put a disclaimer in: I am a horriable speller/writer to begain with and then put no sleep, stress an typing on an iPhone.. Well you have all seen how that's turning out but I think you get the idea..
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